28 Weeks

28w0d: Cervical length check and ultrasound. Cervix looks great and so does baby girl! Measuring 2lbs 14 oz now and starting to look a lot more like Eva in the 4d pictures! Today, she opened and closed her mouth a few times while we watched, which Eva thought was just the coolest thing ever! 

28w1d: regular OB appointment. Got pressure about my lack of weight gain again. Was asked, "are you dieting" and replied, "absolutely. I am 100% actively dieting...because you tell me I have to be!". In the end, she wasn't able to give me any new ideas for what I could eat that would add calories without adding carbs. Frustrating. Got my progesterone shot and itched within a few hours even with the 50mgs of benedryl.  Rats!

28w2d: Went to my niece's 5th birthday and my nephew's 1st today! Eva is over the moon for her big cousin and had so much fun at her Wizard of Oz party, which was on a horse farm--our girl is obsessed with all things horses right now! Started to grow concerned while we were there that she has been having so many pee pee accidents lately. She can't seem to hold it. Concerned about diabetes...

28w4d: Was a little nervous today because I wasn't feeling the baby as much as I have been recently. I could rationalize that she may have flipped over and was facing my back, making it harder to feel, but I was still hyper aware of it.

28w5d: Was woken up out of a deep sleep at 3:30 am because baby girl started tap dancing on my bladder. Guess I don't have to worry about how she's doing anymore! She is active and strong as usual! 

28w6d: I had to take my engagement ring off today. You would think at almost 29 weeks that would be due to swelling, but no. This stupid GD situation has made me lose so much weight that the ring flung off while I was towel drying after a shower.  So stupid. 

My Motherhood=Turning Page

I know this song is supposed to be about lovers, but it describes my journey as a mother to a tee! It makes me an emotional wreck!


Turning Page

I've waiting a hundred years
But I'd wait a million more for you
Nothing prepared me for
What the privilege of being yours would do

If I had only felt the warmth within your touch
If I had only seen how you smile when you blush
Or how you curl your lip when you concentrate enough
I would have known what I was living for all along
What I've been living for

Your love is my turning page
Where only the sweetest words remain
Every kiss is a cursive line
Every touch is a redefining phrase

I surrender who I've been for who you are
Nothing makes me stronger than your fragile heart
If I had only felt how it feels to be yours
I would have know what I've been living for all along
What I've been living for

Though we're tethered to the story we must tell
When I saw you, well, I knew we'd tell it well
With a whisper, we will tame the vicious seas
like a feather bringing kingdoms to their knees

27 Weeks

27w0d: p17 injection day. Only 9 weeks left of these things! Had two more painful contractions today.

27w1-3ds: Canceled some plans we had this weekend in order to take it easy and stick close to home after this week's contraction scare. We took Eva to ride the horses at a nearby park and she is just so proud and at home up there in the saddle! I think we have horseback riding lessons in our future for sure!

27w4d: Eva had her picture day at school today and they offered sibling photos so I figured it counted that I had her sibling inside me and we got a mommy/daughter picture!

27w6d: Eva told me that I am going to have lots and lots of babies today! I would love for that to be true!

26 Weeks

26w0d: Had my regular OB appointment. Got the side-eye/questioned about my lack of weight gain and then an "ah ha" when my response was "well I have GD and I work very hard to stick to the diet so I probably won't be gaining much weight". End of that discussion. Expressed how exhausted I have been lately. Almost fell asleep in the car at a red light yesterday. Took blood to check for anemia...lol...just add that to the pile!

26w1d: Eva's first real day of school today. She is back with her teacher from last year and most of her 2s friends have returned to the 3s program so she is thrilled! She was so shy last year and this year she walked right in like she owns the joint!

26w2d: Asked Eva what she wanted to do today and she said, "go see some animals"! So we took her to the farm/orchard and fed the goats and got the most delicious apples money can buy. We fought over them in the car on the way home!

26w3d: Baby girl is bumping around all day in there! Can see my belly duck and weave as she rolls around! Such fun!

26w4d: Eva had her very first dance class today! She was so excited to go, very shy to start, but walked right in with her class and did so great! They have a tv up in the waiting area so you can watch the lesson and she listened to her teacher and had a smile on her face the whole time. In the end, she was the only one to cry, but she cried because it was over!!!!

26w5d: Eva helped me watch our friend's baby this morning. She was REALLY into helping me feed her a bottle and change her diaper and keep her happy! I hope the novelty doesn't wear off before her sister comes! I am sure it will get old fast when she is doing that every day for weeks on end, but it was really sweet to watch her in that role today! Grandma came to visit today and when she knocked on the door, Eva jumped up and down and couldn't get to the door to let her in fast enough, shouting "grandma's here! grandma's here!!!!". :-) Got my bloodwork results back and I am NOT anemic! Victory #1!

26w6d: Had a very normal morning and afternoon and got Eva to bed easily and then.....8:45 I was sitting on the couch and I felt a contraction. Not a regular Braxton Hicks and not a "Holy Shit that bitch hurts" contraction but somewhere in between. It definitely had an element of pain associated with it. So I sat and watched the clock. 8:49 there was another one. 8:53. 8:57. 9:01. 9:05. Time to say something out loud. Matt got me some water and nothing changed. Every 4 minutes. Luckily Grandma was here to stay with Eva because we were in the car on the way to the hospital by 9:30 and called the doctor on the way. At registration they asked the questions that could mean my water broke and it dawned on me that I had to change my underwear mid day because they were wet. I had assumed I just peed a little because, c'mon, that happens at this point, but what if my water actually broke?!? So here is where some serious concern turned into panic for me and I ended up shaking uncontrollably. They fast tracked me and I was called back to a room as soon as one was available. They set me up on the monitors and she hated it again and began kicking right at it! The doctor came in shortly and luckily my water had not broken and my cervix was closed and in her opinion "not threatening at all" so it was just a matter of stopping the contractions. They set me up on an IV to give me fluids and that slowed them but didn't stop them. So I got a shot of something that relaxes soft muscles and that did the trick, but of course made me super jittery and freezing because the IV fluid pumping through my veins was ice cold. They did a test to see my likelihood of delivering in the next two weeks and it was 97% unlikely...THANK GOD! In the end, the doctor told me what I am having are just Braxton Hicks, but apparently they can be painful and still be just Braxton Hicks as long as they aren't progressive in opening my cervix. So I may just get these now. It's very unnerving because how am I supposed to know when it's something threatening and when it's not??? So I am supposed to "take it easy" and "not go too far" but am on no degree of bed rest or anything like that. I see my doctor again this week on Friday and get a cervical check with maternal fetal medicine on Thursday so I am well covered this week and happy about that! I am so relieved that everything was fine and that this little girl didn't have anything funny planned just shy of 27 weeks. She is throwing me one curve ball after another here!

25 Weeks

25w0d: Eva came with me to work this morning at her school. She is so excited to start preschool back up that it makes me smile! I was on my feet a lot this morning and I felt my first Braxton Hicks contraction and felt...well, vaginally engorged off and on.

25w1d: Eva had her preschool classroom visit today while I worked at her school. She had an amazing day. I increasingly experienced contractions all morning and felt consistently engorged, enough that I called my doctor about it and they suggested I go to triage. I dropped Eva off with Matt and he took her to our friend's house and I went to triage. I was prepared for a long haul there as usual, but they actually called me back in 10 minutes, which has got to be a record for that place! They hooked me and baby girl up on all the monitors and began to watch us. She did not like the monitor on her. She kicked repeatedly and vigorously right at the placement of the monitor! They clocked a contraction, during which her heart rate dropped, which was a concern to them. They ordered an IV set up for me but didn't put it in (this was the only moment I was really concerned at all). They told me to lay on my side and as soon as I did, her heart rate returned to normal and they said that's not abnormal at 25 weeks. They wheeled me over to maternal fetal medicine for a cervical check and I was long and closed so they began discharge paperwork and told me that everything is normal for now. I have begun Braxton Hicks on the early side of normal and that is totally fine as long as they aren't productive in shortening my cervix. So I will just continue my normal cervical exams every other week and see what happens from there! I got my p17 shot while there.

25w2d-5d: Took it really easy and slow all weekend and made a point to relax as a family. Matt was able to finish painting Eva's bed and it looks great in her room! She has been so excited about it and she hasn't fallen out yet, which of course is great! No allergic reaction or soreness from the p17 shot at all this week!

25w6d: I went for my regularly scheduled cervical check today and my cervix was actually longer today than it was in triage on Friday thanks to that glorious p17 injection!

24 Weeks

24w1d: got my p17 shot and it hurt like a motherf-er today for some reason. i don't know if she shot it in faster that normal or what but holy hell!

24w2d: matt started working on building eva's big girl day bed today. it was something i had pinned on pinterest awhile ago and he took the plans and got all the materials. he made all the cuts today and will assemble tomorrow! i am so excited! i took eva to a horse farm and she went on a pony ride today. she was in absolute heaven on that horse!

24w3d: the bed looks amazing! i could burst with pride and now matt's honey-do (or really "honey-build") list is growing quickly!! just need to paint it now!

24w4d: spent the day in hershey park with my parents-in-law, step-sister-in-law and nieces and nephew. was very stressed about putting my diabetic self in that situation. surrounded by chocolatey sweetness was difficult. i was just hyper aware of it all day (um, yum the smores made from two chocolate chip cookies, marshmallow and a reeses cup!!!), but i held strong. after lunch (a salad), I got an email from my nurses telling me to up my night time dose to 12 units now because my fastings have still be high. this sent me into tears. later, my sugar crashed and i split some ice cream with eva to elevate it back up. there is no winning. but eva had an amazing time at hershey with her cousins! she loved all the rides, but mostly the little frog hopper, dizzy drums and carousel! she loves anything with horses these days!

24w6d: had eva's best little friends here this afternoon. eva is so into taking care of her best friend's baby sister! she was much more interested in watching me feed her a bottle than playing princesses with her friend! hope the novelty doesn't wear off before her sister comes!