15 weeks has been a pretty low-key week. I didn't have any doctor's appointments and no sugar crashes, although I am already sick to death of eggs and salads. I have been feeling the baby move in the form of what feels like gas rolls for weeks now without any real regularity, but this week, I felt the pitter patter of actual baby legs kicking around. It went on for about 5 minutes one night and it felt like my pulse was in my uterus. Such a wonderful feeling! I also had to pop the buttons on my pants open while driving this week for the first time and slipped on my first pair of maternity pants at the end of the week. Most of my maternity stuff is WAY too big and I am sort of in refusal mode to go buy any so I ordered some belly bands and hope they arrive quickly to get me through this awkward stage! In 15 weeks, I have gained 2 pounds so I feel good about that.
Eva is stoked to be a big sister. Her best friend, Lana, recently became a big sister and Eva is ready to join the bandwagon. She will look into my belly button and ask, "baby in there? far far away in there? i can't see her" (she is CONVINCED it is a girl. There is no reasoning with her that it may be a boy!). She asks me what the baby's name is and whether it is awake or sleeping throughout the day. I have told her that the baby will come home when we are getting ready for Santa to come so she is doubly excited about the mention of Santa.
I am anxious for my ultrasound at 16w1d. It will be my first check on the baby in 3.5 weeks, since I left the specialist. I am praying everything looks great and my cervical length is just what they expect it to be. I am hoping they can also tell us if Eva is right...is this a little sister?
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Thursday, June 21, 2012
14 weeks
14 weeks.
14w0d: first MAJOR sugar crash of my life. after 10 units of insulin at bedtime, I am supposed to lie inactive for 8 hours. Instead, I was up ALLLLLLL night with a sick Eva. at 3am, my sugar crashed violently. I took the reading and it was 58. I treated it the way they told me to the other day and ate chocolate. my hands were so shaky that I could barely open the wrapper. then I spent the entire day ping ponging with my sugars going too high and then too low. felt disgusting all day. nurse said i no longer get to treat with chocolate....wahhhhhh.
14w1d: big excitement in the Shire household=after 6 months of torturous potty training, Eva made it to five dry days in a row, which means she has earned herself a bike!
14w2d: spent the day with family at my brother in law's engagement party. was told there would be tons for me to eat and not to pack anything for myself. WRONG! lesson learned that I need to ALWAYS bring something for myself when we are eating out.
14w3d: Father's Day and second major sugar crash. my poor husband had a crap father's day because I woke up at 62 and puked twice before 9am, then had a raging headache and he sent me to bed until I evened out, which was around 3pm.
14w4d: dropped to 8 units of insulin and doing much better!
14w6d: first pair of pants are getting really tight. time to wash some maternity clothes!
14w0d: first MAJOR sugar crash of my life. after 10 units of insulin at bedtime, I am supposed to lie inactive for 8 hours. Instead, I was up ALLLLLLL night with a sick Eva. at 3am, my sugar crashed violently. I took the reading and it was 58. I treated it the way they told me to the other day and ate chocolate. my hands were so shaky that I could barely open the wrapper. then I spent the entire day ping ponging with my sugars going too high and then too low. felt disgusting all day. nurse said i no longer get to treat with chocolate....wahhhhhh.
14w1d: big excitement in the Shire household=after 6 months of torturous potty training, Eva made it to five dry days in a row, which means she has earned herself a bike!
14w2d: spent the day with family at my brother in law's engagement party. was told there would be tons for me to eat and not to pack anything for myself. WRONG! lesson learned that I need to ALWAYS bring something for myself when we are eating out.
14w3d: Father's Day and second major sugar crash. my poor husband had a crap father's day because I woke up at 62 and puked twice before 9am, then had a raging headache and he sent me to bed until I evened out, which was around 3pm.
14w4d: dropped to 8 units of insulin and doing much better!
14w6d: first pair of pants are getting really tight. time to wash some maternity clothes!
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
13 Weeks
13 weeks.
I should be theoretically breathing a sigh of relief at this point because I have made it to the second trimester and out of the danger zone, right? Instead, this has been a challenging week for me.
13w0d-started tracking my sugar levels due to my early onset gestational diabetes. just like it was with eva, it's these damn fasting sugars that are gonna kill me. by dinner, it seems i have a lot more freedom to eat what i'd like (not "whatever i'd like" just more freedom towards that direction) but i have basically zero options on how to bring that fasting level down. i am hating the whole thing because i am pretty confident they will put me on insulin and fast.
13w1d-got my first trimester screening results back. at no increased risk for any chromosomal abnormalities or other such issues. a friend got hers back today too and had the exact opposite results. feeling like a dope for being so concerned about having diabetes. wahhhh jane, wahhhh. grow up.
13w2d-a friend contacts me because she thinks she is having an early miscarriage. she was. horrible having to sit back and be helpless when you know what that experience is like. starting to panic that everything may not be ok with my little one either for no reason other than blind anxiety and the knowledge i have no ultrasounds or dopplers scheduled for over 2 weeks. flying solo.
13w4d-one of my very best friends had her second child today-a beautiful baby girl! 90% of my tears were of joy. 10% were a result of how bad i want that for myself and my family. i also had my GD consultation today and i HATED the nurse. for so many reasons. HATED HER. she scheduled me to come back to meet with her later in the week to show me how to use the insulin. i quickly rescheduled with someone else.
13w5d-6/12/12. i was due to have a baby today. desperately wishing i had an ultrasound scheduled so i could be sure that i have this little one hanging on safely!
I should be theoretically breathing a sigh of relief at this point because I have made it to the second trimester and out of the danger zone, right? Instead, this has been a challenging week for me.
13w0d-started tracking my sugar levels due to my early onset gestational diabetes. just like it was with eva, it's these damn fasting sugars that are gonna kill me. by dinner, it seems i have a lot more freedom to eat what i'd like (not "whatever i'd like" just more freedom towards that direction) but i have basically zero options on how to bring that fasting level down. i am hating the whole thing because i am pretty confident they will put me on insulin and fast.
13w1d-got my first trimester screening results back. at no increased risk for any chromosomal abnormalities or other such issues. a friend got hers back today too and had the exact opposite results. feeling like a dope for being so concerned about having diabetes. wahhhh jane, wahhhh. grow up.
13w2d-a friend contacts me because she thinks she is having an early miscarriage. she was. horrible having to sit back and be helpless when you know what that experience is like. starting to panic that everything may not be ok with my little one either for no reason other than blind anxiety and the knowledge i have no ultrasounds or dopplers scheduled for over 2 weeks. flying solo.
13w4d-one of my very best friends had her second child today-a beautiful baby girl! 90% of my tears were of joy. 10% were a result of how bad i want that for myself and my family. i also had my GD consultation today and i HATED the nurse. for so many reasons. HATED HER. she scheduled me to come back to meet with her later in the week to show me how to use the insulin. i quickly rescheduled with someone else.
13w5d-6/12/12. i was due to have a baby today. desperately wishing i had an ultrasound scheduled so i could be sure that i have this little one hanging on safely!
Friday, June 8, 2012
a course in anxiety: week by week
3w5d: positive pregnancy result via blood test at specialist's office
4w5d: first ultrasound showing little gray gestational sac and yolk sac
5w5d: ultrasound showing a week's growth in a week's time. my dr who is also "the fetus whisperer" informs me that he can tell the tiny heartbeat just flicked on about two days ago!
6w5d: ultrasound #3 measured a few days shy of a week's growth and here is where jane starts to go a bit looney tooney
7w1d: ultrasound #4 at my request because i am having panic attacks around the clock. baby measured well. heart rate was good. dr told me he will give me as many ultrasounds as i feel i need to keep my sanity. cried in his office and later over the phone to the nurse because i am a basket case.
8w0d: ultrasound. baby measured 8w1d. having anxiety attacks around the clock as we approach the mid-week point where i lost both other babies. arm and leg buds present=our little gummy bear. I swear I feel the baby start to move at this time.
8w5d: ultrasound. baby measured 9w0d. first sigh of relief that i made it to 9 weeks because neither of the last two babies did.
9w5d: ultrasound. baby measured 10w1d. strong heartbeat. beginning to look like a little baby and not so much like a gummy bear! was told to call my regular OB to start the transition process, which totally freaked me out. DEFINITELY feeling the baby now!
10w5d: ultrasound. baby measured 11w2d. good blood flow and strong and steady hearbeat. Eva randomly asked me if there was a baby in my belly. we were not planning to tell her yet.
11w0d: OB appointment with regular OB. blood work and urine given and went over all the ridiculous bullshit i have gone over 4 times now. oh, you mean i can't drink? that hasn't changed since i was hear in november? oh wow..shocker.
11w5d: call from OB nurse. something "alarming" in my lab work from last week=jane flipping the hell out. turned out just to be that i have a UTI. thank the lord.
11w6d: ultrasound. got to play guinea pig to a brand new, high tech machine at the specialists office, which meant 8 people were in the room as a got probed. baby measured 12w2d, heart rate 161bpm. got to see baby in 3D and 4D as well. had hands in fists covering its little face, clearly wanting to surprise us with its good looks! sonographer has a reputation for early gender determination. gave us her prediction!
12w4d: OB appointment and early glucose test. Orange glucose juice wasn't bad at first...then it got disgusting about 4 sips in. YUCKO! weight gain looking good so far (good!). forced a thorough breast exam out of my OB because Carla lost her battle with breast cancer just 2 days before-luckily everything looked good in that department! discussed all the categories that they will consider me "high risk". starting at 16 weeks, I will get cervical length checks because Eva showed up 5 weeks premature. if it starts to shorten, I get bed rest. starting at 18 weeks, I get a hormone shot in my ass every week that my doctor was not shy about the fact that it hurts...alot. I am glad they are acknowledging my risk factors!
12w5d: Glucose results came in and I have gestational diabetes already...AGAIN. i cried off and on all day about this before snapping myself out of it. i will make it work.
12w6d: first trimester screening and graduation from specialists office. screening went well. waiting on bloodwork results still. early gender prediction confirmed. won't go to the bank on it just yet! scheduled my c-section: 12/6/12!
13w0d: hello, second trimester! it's fantastic to see you again! :)
4w5d: first ultrasound showing little gray gestational sac and yolk sac
5w5d: ultrasound showing a week's growth in a week's time. my dr who is also "the fetus whisperer" informs me that he can tell the tiny heartbeat just flicked on about two days ago!
6w5d: ultrasound #3 measured a few days shy of a week's growth and here is where jane starts to go a bit looney tooney
7w1d: ultrasound #4 at my request because i am having panic attacks around the clock. baby measured well. heart rate was good. dr told me he will give me as many ultrasounds as i feel i need to keep my sanity. cried in his office and later over the phone to the nurse because i am a basket case.
8w0d: ultrasound. baby measured 8w1d. having anxiety attacks around the clock as we approach the mid-week point where i lost both other babies. arm and leg buds present=our little gummy bear. I swear I feel the baby start to move at this time.
8w5d: ultrasound. baby measured 9w0d. first sigh of relief that i made it to 9 weeks because neither of the last two babies did.
9w5d: ultrasound. baby measured 10w1d. strong heartbeat. beginning to look like a little baby and not so much like a gummy bear! was told to call my regular OB to start the transition process, which totally freaked me out. DEFINITELY feeling the baby now!
10w5d: ultrasound. baby measured 11w2d. good blood flow and strong and steady hearbeat. Eva randomly asked me if there was a baby in my belly. we were not planning to tell her yet.
11w0d: OB appointment with regular OB. blood work and urine given and went over all the ridiculous bullshit i have gone over 4 times now. oh, you mean i can't drink? that hasn't changed since i was hear in november? oh wow..shocker.
11w5d: call from OB nurse. something "alarming" in my lab work from last week=jane flipping the hell out. turned out just to be that i have a UTI. thank the lord.
11w6d: ultrasound. got to play guinea pig to a brand new, high tech machine at the specialists office, which meant 8 people were in the room as a got probed. baby measured 12w2d, heart rate 161bpm. got to see baby in 3D and 4D as well. had hands in fists covering its little face, clearly wanting to surprise us with its good looks! sonographer has a reputation for early gender determination. gave us her prediction!
12w4d: OB appointment and early glucose test. Orange glucose juice wasn't bad at first...then it got disgusting about 4 sips in. YUCKO! weight gain looking good so far (good!). forced a thorough breast exam out of my OB because Carla lost her battle with breast cancer just 2 days before-luckily everything looked good in that department! discussed all the categories that they will consider me "high risk". starting at 16 weeks, I will get cervical length checks because Eva showed up 5 weeks premature. if it starts to shorten, I get bed rest. starting at 18 weeks, I get a hormone shot in my ass every week that my doctor was not shy about the fact that it hurts...alot. I am glad they are acknowledging my risk factors!
12w5d: Glucose results came in and I have gestational diabetes already...AGAIN. i cried off and on all day about this before snapping myself out of it. i will make it work.
12w6d: first trimester screening and graduation from specialists office. screening went well. waiting on bloodwork results still. early gender prediction confirmed. won't go to the bank on it just yet! scheduled my c-section: 12/6/12!
13w0d: hello, second trimester! it's fantastic to see you again! :)
April 2, 2012
Cross your fingers.
Cross your toes.
Cross your arms.
Cross your legs.
Cross your nuts.
Cross your "t"s...
You get the idea.
We are officially back in the danger zone with a positive pregnancy test.
December 13th is the target.
Cross your toes.
Cross your arms.
Cross your legs.
Cross your nuts.
Cross your "t"s...
You get the idea.
We are officially back in the danger zone with a positive pregnancy test.
December 13th is the target.
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