Operation June baby began as scheduled and is all wrapped up in a pretty little bow now as we play the waiting game.
I have decided to talk to no one about any early signs or symptoms because it is so easy to fall into a cycle of imagining things and that just leaves me feeling disappointed, depressed and scared when my period inevitably arrives. So outwardly, I am projecting the attitude of "not pregnant until proven positive". Of course I am being intelligent and taking my prenatal vitamins, not drinking, no soft cheeses and blahbibity blah, but I am not going to question my pregnancy status with anyone until there is nothing to question. One way or another.
That is the face I wear.
Inside I am freaking out at the real possibility that I am typing this pregnant. So let's do this:
1. For about 2-3 hours two days ago I had cramps. Just mild and constant but definitely there and then they vanished and have not returned. I am not due for my period until October 5. These were not menstrual. Implantation cramping, yeah?
2. Last month I said I thought my nipples looked funny and it turned out that's just how they always look when I get my period. This month they definitely look weird. Not the same weird as last month, it's different. I saw them this morning and thought, "ooooh yeah! THAT's what they looked like" as if I was recognizing an old friend. The color is off, darker. And they appear harder; more right angles I guess.
3. I thought maybe my boobs were sore last month, but I think I created that in my head because I wanted to believe they were. Right now, it's a slight soreness that is hard to describe. It doesn't "hurt" if I squeeze a boob but there is just a light burning feeling that is constantly uncomfortable. It's a feeling I remember.
So I definitely could be pregnant. And if I am, I'm due June 12. That sounds fine to me!
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